Confused in a crazy world

         Most of the people have to fight for everything in life. To get a job, a place at the university, for the living of every day, for the family, for success, and everything which is essential or complementary in their lives. Those who doesn't understand what I mean are just simply careless about their lives or they have everything, and they can get anything without effort.
         I consider myself lucky with those people who have to fight to survive and to succeed, and they know how to do it. I think it is a goal supreme to become a really good 'fighter', because that means that every moment of the life has a purpose, and every time you reach it a new one will be generated. In this way life has sense, it is motivated. But what happens when we put the question 'What do we fight for? Why do we need this?'
        In this moment, when we put these questions something will happen. If the goals which guide our life are firm, probably nothing will happen, but if these questions will weaken the faith in the sense of our life, it can cause big changes. Realizing that the direction of our life is wrong, or it brings in the midst can be terrifying. It gives the feeling that we are in tunnel which brings you in the unknown or that we are in a labyrinth from here the exit is almost impossible to find. In this phase we will feel that our own goals are keeping us prisoner, we are controlling our lives through them.
       That is the moment when many things can change...in good or bad...it depends just on the decision we take.
       

Discovering a new favourite writer-Isabel Allende

I'm choosing carefully my favourite writer, and usually after reading several works, but it seems that I just picked up the right novel from Isabel Allende. However, I'm sure that very soon i will read more from her works as with the first one my attention was captivated and I can state that she became one of my favourites. This feminist writer originary from Chile, but living nowadays in California has an interesting and adventurous life, she is a wife, mother, grandmother, friend and last but not least a succesfull, bestselling author and according to her in every novel she is exploring a part of herself, in every story lies something more or less from her.

I have just finished her novel entitled 'The Sum of Our Days' and it had a great impact on me.Isabel Allende has the gift to tell some facts which will become personal for the reader, will make him/her to think, to see life with different eyes and to be more grateful for what he/she has. This impressive memoir presents her family, where each member have a very complex personality, sometimes even scandalous, though they are a great team, a 'tribe', as the writer defines it.
The narrative is very vivacious, giving an insight to the sorrows and joys of this unique family. It presents different moments of their lives, being very much concentrated on the pain of losing the beloved Paula, Isabel's daughter, to whom she is addressing directly in the novel very often. Sometimes it seems as a letter to Paula, telling what happened after her departure.

'The Sum of Our Days' is not a good memoir to read, it is an example of how to go on in life after a big loss, how to remember and have the memory of the beloved dead person with you every day without feeling pain, but acceptance, it is an experience of life. She writes about love, death, spiritualism, drug addiction and orher aspects of life without making judgements, but making to reflect. Reading this novel wasn't just a lecture, it was an experience, and my next aquisition will be Isabel's novel 'Paula', written in the memory of her dead daughter, because I'm sure that she has very much more to offer with every novel, and especially with the memoir of her daughter.