Friday, March 30, 2012

Results of unshared problems

Just after it happened we can realize how mistaken we were. Struggling with the thought that actually it shouldn't happen this, it wasn't so serious the problem that caused all this mess. But no, it should be said those things, just that some people can't understand sometimes the meaning . Therefore they are accusing that all this drama is for nothing,
I'm not a drama queen, I don't like to exaggerate, that is why I feel outraged when I am not listened or my rights are denied. But this can really hurt when a beloved person is doing this to you. I am deeply convinced that communication is the key to resolve an argument. But when it arrives to be more than an argument what shall be done?
Ignoring the other, avoiding the problem is an error. Losing the temper can be fatal in the solution of the problem. My experiences of the past confirms this. In the heat of the quarrel there can be said things which will be felt as a stab in the heart. This time I didn't say nothing what I will regret, I wanted just to be listened when I decided to share my fears. But they would find deaf ears. I didn't want to transform it at all in an argument, just a discussion which was supposed to make better our lives. Everything became a mess, feeling miserable and lonely.
 I hate to feel like this, by trying to find consolation, I have to realize that it's not the end of my life, I would always go ahead, but it's not the time to let things to end this way. We shared so much things, good and bad, but good moments were much more than difficult ones. This should be kept as a key in taking decisions. It can be fury, disappointment, rage in the heart, but remembering the unique moments all these feelings can soften. Rage and disappointment are very bad advisers, never should take decisions while they are controlling our emotions.
Waiting is the challenge now. Who will make the first step? Or it was already done, just that it was refused? Tomorrow is another day. It would be enough just a call, to feel that there is still something remained, waiting to be saved. What if tomorrow never comes? Or tomorrow will be a 'dark' day? Dilemmas which doesn't have sense, they are just poisoning the mind and soul.
TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY...


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